I Should Clarify

It's not that I don't get lots of "Me Time." Heavens no. My husband, G, is the absolute best--if anything he allows for me to be a bit selfish with the "Me Time." And my kids are great. S is nearly 13 and he is basically another parent, O is now 7 and he helps tremendously and while E can be a bit of a pain in the ass challenge, her snuggles keep me going and her brothers keep her entertained. So actual time is not the problem.

The problem is more that I don't exactly use my time wisely. In first grade we had daily work "packets" and when you finished your packed you went over to this board full of tags, found the tag with your name and flipped it over. Everyone with their tag flipped went to recess after lunch, otherwise you went back to the classroom to finish your packet--I think you can see where this is going. Nearly every day I was in that classroom for recess and it wasn't because I couldn't do the work--there was just OTHER things I would rather be doing and going out to recess was clearly not my currency.

So when I get those moments of free time, I often sit and watch TV or check my phone. Because it is easy and it is there. Sure I COULD be productive, but I have already shared that execution is not my forte. It also takes a bit of preparation to do things that would be a better use of my time so that is more execution that I just can't handle without prior planing.

And how much more awesome will it feel to be INTENTIONAL about doing something for myself? That's Radical Self Care, my friend (more on that later).